Tuesday, April 30, 2013

The big stuff

Life is so constructed, that the event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation. - Charlotte Bronte

It has been a busy month for the MacMillan family.  From guests in town to celebrating Chloe's birthday, we have had our fill of big events.  For a moment I breathe a sigh of relief and say, "We made it through the big stuff."  The big stuff referring to our first Florida Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter and of course birthdays. 

I have struggled with the idea of having the "perfect" moments for my kids.  I think a mixture of guilt from moving them 1500 miles away from their original home and my striving for perfection have put me in an anxious mode these past few months.  Luckily I have a husband, family and friends that keep me grounded.  They remind me that I am doing the best that I can for my kids and at the end of the day, I know they are given all the love and support that they need from me.   So, as I have gotten a few of these big events here in Florida under my belt I have realized that it always works out and just being together makes it a great event.

It was so fun to watch Chloe and all her little kindergarten friends swim and play at her birthday party.  It was not a huge spectical and yet at the end of the day Chloe was so happy.  That was all that mattered and it brought a smile to my heart.

We have had so many fun times here in Florida and a lot of those revolve around the beach.  My oldest sister was in town a few weeks ago and we of course made the great drive to Clearwater Beach.  It was the week of the Sandcastle Sculptures and that was really neat to see.  We are used to seeing snow castles but this year we traded that in for sand instead. 

Girls in front of a sand sculpture at Clearwater Beach

 
I have spent a lot of my time and energy on worrying about how the big events would turn out that I let that shadow these fun adventures.  It is always a work in progress, the test of patience, letting go of expectation and just enjoying the ride.

I used to say this to many of my yoga students, "Practice makes better (not perfect)." I think that this can be applied to all areas of life.  There are always going to be good days and maybe not so good days.  This goes for on and off the yoga mat. 

After you practice yoga for a while you start to realize that there are days where just rolling out the mat is about all our practice will involve.  I had a good realization last week during my own yoga practice, "What happens on the mat, stays on the mat."  Our yoga practice is just that, our own.  So are the big and not so big events in our lives - they are always ours.

So, I will continue to practice the art of patience, striving to simply be better (not perfect) and enjoying this sun-filled ride.

May the light in me honor the light in you,

Namaste